Warning: hormonal mom rant... My babies are growing up. I've been feeling particularly emotional and vulnerable as a mom lately. It's similar to the feeling that i had when K, R & G first went to pre-school and we were no longer fully in control of the influences in their lives. They are all blossoming into these fantastic young people and I could not be prouder. K & R have begun to spread their wings and i can sense a bit of detachment and independence...which is important and vital to them to be able to navigate their way through life. I just can't believe that we are here...at this point in their lives. How is it that they grew so quickly...in what feels like overnight? I suppose my heavy heart can be attributed to the fact that I am just days away from turning 40, which is a reminder that my young mommyhood is fading. I find myself envious of the moms with little ones in tow at the grocery store, even though ironically, when I was knee deep in those days, I remember being envious of the moms who were able to get their shopping done much more efficiently because their kids were in school. The Today Show had a segment on this morning about sending kids off to college for the first time. I watched with tears streaming down my face because I am keenly aware that I am about to blink and 3 years will have passed and Mark and I will be sending K on her way. It will no doubt be a proud, thrilling, exciting and heart-breaking event in our lives. Forty-shmorty...it's just a number...I'm going to savor the next decade of my life and the joy my kids bring to it. ♥
Oh dear, big hug. I too turned 40 this summer and even though I do feel it is just a number I've been seeing lots of rather young looking moms as I am running to the colorist to get those roots done. Maybe it is just adapting to the school year starting again (which seems to throw a lot of us for a loop)and you will be feeling great in a few weeks. Hope so and feel better. Forty is the new 29, I'm sticking with that and so should you.
Posted by: Perrin | September 02, 2009 at 06:00 PM
ooooooh irol. i understand. u know i do. i love you. xoxoxo mik
Posted by: Kim Ranger | September 03, 2009 at 09:41 PM